Day 31/32/33 The days are starting to blend together now. I’m up in the morning at my usual time and Sis sleeps in. She takes a sleeping pill and I’m wondering what it would be like to get off of it. She talks about feeling “weak “ in the knees and I wonder if it’s a side effect of the pill or just lingering radiation side effects. I’ve taken sleeping pills before and they made me feel bad the next day. We continue with our focus on studying the bible, prayer, and listening to teaching tapes. We rarely watch TV, but when we do it’s usually the Weather Channel. Don’t ask me why. Day 32 Sis went out for lunch today on her own. This is a big step for me. I don’t feel entirely comfortable with this, but I can’t be ruled by my emotions. They can’t be trusted. If I let my emotions control me I’ll have no peace; my faith will crumble; the darkness will overtake me. I shall not be afraid! My faith is not in what I see, or hear, or feel ... it’s in God and His promise of healing (Exodus 15:26, Psalm 103:3, Isaiah 53: 4-5, I Peter 2:24, III John 2). In fact it’s already done, so we’re gonna walk, talk, laugh, sing, dance, and enjoy every day like the healed people we are! Day 33 We took delivery this morning of the hardwood for the floor that will be installed in the living room Monday. The guy that made the delivery had also delivered the lumber for the deck earlier in the week. He eyed the new retaining wall and asked, “How long have you lived here ... did you just move in?” He’s a great guy and we yucked it up as he carried the wood in and stacked it up in the living room. When he was done I checked on Sis. She was barely starting to wake up. She ambitiously sets her alarm for her morning bible study, which she has scheduled as the first task on her daily agenda. I’m not sure what the second task is. She usually “wings it”. Being a jazz musician, and therefore comfortable with improvising, has prepared me for this. Today she decided to do the grocery shopping without me. We’ve been discussing this for a few days now. Sis says, “If God can heal lung cancer, He can make a tomato from Publix just as nutritious as one from Wild Oats. We pray before we eat don’t we?” She’s such a smart-aleck sometimes. <back