Day 9 This day hold’s such promise. We’re seeing one of the most respected oncologists in Nashville. Sis was able to strike up another conversation with a lady in the waiting room. She had been diagnosed two weeks ago and was stage four. She seemed to be coping, but you can tell from that distracted gaze that looks through you, she’s just hanging on the best she can. I see it in Sis every now and then, I’m sure she sees it in me, too. Sis tried to talk her about God, but she didn’t really seem to want to hear it. She said she “knew” the bible and was satisfied with that. It didn’t seem to bring her any comfort. There’s one thing I’ll say about what we’re going through. Even when things get really bad (and they have gotten about as bad as it gets) it’s faith in God, and his promises that are the ONLY thing that can pull us up. We’re hanging on to that as hard as we can.  Think I said it before, but it’s still true. I’d hate to face this without God. I don’t think I could. What do people without God do? I’ll cut right to the chase. As nice as doctor Cohen is, it’s hard to hear this stuff. He said, “This is bad”. We can treat it, but we can’t cure it. We’ve always known that on one level or another. He recommends aggressive chemotherapy. He says perhaps it can be sent into remission, or held in check. It will either work or it won’t. It all depends on how well she tolerates the chemo and whether or not the cancer responds. He didn’t say it wouldn’t work, so I’ll just concentrate on that. He ordered an MRI of the brain. He doesn’t necessarily think there’s anything there, but we’ve got to know. Sis asked, “Is there anything I could’ve done?” He told her there was absolutely nothing she could have done. She’s the absolute picture of health, except for cancer. He said she was one of those rare cases they see only occasionally. I’ve always known she was special and rare. When we left Sis told me that she was dizzy, forgetting things, light-headed, and had a headache. That’s what happens when your oncologist order an MRI of your brain. It’s really hard to rationalize that these could all be symptoms of the extreme stress she’d been through the last 10 days. Thank God for God. That’s the only peace we have right now. <back