Day 18/19 Hello….. I am here.  Day 5 of radiation is over…..Hooray! I am half-way through. I really have had no ill effects. I don’t need an aspirin or additional steroids. The Doc thinks this is really good news. Only one piece of tape and the light was blue (my Father-In-Law wants to know). The house renovation is going on. Funny, how J and I lived here for years and never really did anything to this dumpy little house. We just flew off to Music or Banking and never really noticed the windows are bad and the deck has fallen. We have now ordered windows and are replacing the deck. Ain’t life weird? I will say I have been a little detached emotionally. This is the weirdest experience anyone could have. The tendency is to “leave yourself” and just hover above the situation. Not really a participant. Just be lead around. (J is great at leading me right now) This is kinda freaky because it’s almost a role reversal for us. I am working on changing this. It is on me. Every day is a new opportunity. Tell you what ... several of you have let me know you are walking with me right now in the same situation. I would pray that you do not take the negative thoughts. When they come to you stay positive. Plan activities for the future. See yourself well. I am going to counter punch the negative thoughts with an overabundance of positive. Watch out for the meds. It is easy to get on medication BIG TIME. I was for a few days. It took me to the dark side. Be careful. You need to think clearly and communicate with God constantly. I am not kidding myself, I have some really bad moments, but I am ON this. The struggle is great. My life has changed from the “chic who makes it happen” to the person going from appointment to appointment. I don’t really care for this. I lift up Mary tonight. May the peace that passes all understanding be yours. <back