Day 8 Before I start day 8, let’s talk about the end of day 7. A fabulous group of friends met last night to lift me up to God, praying for my healing. The prayer meeting was fabulous. Everything was good, then, gradually I became short of breath and got really cold. As several people were talking to me I thought, “Am I going to die right now? Why do men wear flannel shirts as jackets? Why don’t I know these folks better? Why are there intermittent lights on Christmas trees?” My mind is racing, and then Mark asked me to talk about what was happening in my life. I was then able to talk about my vision for a different kind of experience for people like me. A real network where people actually call back at midnight. Thank God for Mark. I became calm, determined, it is most important to break through to the big picture, for me that is: “Who have you helped today?” That is the total picture for me. It’s the only way I get to sleep at night. J and I went home and I fell apart in the bathtub. I thought I finally had it together. Is this going to keep happening, because I thought I was really over it. I want to reach emotional stability and maintain. I am challenged and I don’t like it. So anyway back to Day 8 J and I met with a Radiologist. The first really smiling face I have seen. He was very nice and genuinely interested in my health. He set me up for more tests … and mapped these marks all over my back.  I have to keep them on so everyone knows where to aim the laser… Later in the afternoon I took another test in the little chamber thing…How many times am I gonna be in here?  This scan is happening and I keep watching to see the expressions on everyone’s face in the room running the programs……I am finding this is a very paranoid disease. Oh look, one of the guys cracked a joke! Maybe I will live…..  The most important piece of the day was when I talked to Maggie. She is a cancer patient that is very afraid of what is happening to her. We all are. I told her I was sharing this story and she is visiting these pages now. God bless you Maggie. I just received word that D. is Stage 4. D. and his wife have been in my life for 20 years. Please lift Maggie and D. up to God tonight. <back